tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4548808399719251562011-12-05T19:12:24.017-08:00The night sea journey takes you back to your primordial self, not the heroic self that burns out and falls to judgement, but to your original self, yourself as a sea of possibility, your greater and deeper being. Night sea journey is a cosmic passage taken as a metaphor for our own dark nights, when we are trapped in a mood or by external circumstances and can do little but sit and wait for liberation. The darkness is natural, one of the life processes.--Thomas MooreSGFhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05150400621001239351noreply@blogger.comBlogger1071100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-454880839971925156.post-75298754593442076932011-10-14T18:21:00.000-07:002011-10-14T18:21:34.533-07:00

I just finished watching the Martin Scorsese documentary, George Harrison Living in the Material World. I have just wiped away the tears and for now I think it is just best to feel it and not explain much. I saw so much significant, profound, and moving stuff in this man and this great HBO special. It is now more obvious than before that the "quiet" Beatle was the most profound and deep of the

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On Monday night I attended a Toad the Wet Sprocket concert with a beautiful friend in Providence RI. The club, Lupos Heartbreak Hotel, a former theater, was intimate in size and we had seats right up front. If you sift through my blog, or have been a reader, you know how important music and especially this music has been to me. I was aware of Toad's music, but only in a surface way through the

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I posted this song because I like it and because it struck a chord with me and the Night Sea Journey. The idea of traveling the sea, being immersed in the stuff where life brewed and ultimately fills us with the life essential liquid that sustains our bodies.I also want to mentioned that my son, Bailey had auditioned for, and was selected to play in the Junior Festival Concert at the Fine Arts

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Vacation is over and I spent the day preparing lessons for the week. Readers may not see me posting for a while, but I will try. I am working to try to be more in shape to meet the challenge that life has given me. I joined Twitter and it is very cool. I can make quick comments and they post to my side bar. Anyhow I am watching Robert Plant with Strange Sensation on Palladia. This is a high def

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THIS BLOG ENTRY IS DEDICATED GRATEFULLY TO BLACK PETEConversations between Black Pete and fellow blogger RJ, as well as others, inspired this post. (Black Pete and RJ have an amazing blogs and you can find their links right here on my sidebar.) They have been discussing the Beatles and their evolving and changing connections to the Fab Four. I, for one, always liked McCartney the best. I know

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This song appears in my music player, so it can be played anytime by anyone. I have also posted it before, and this morning it just hit me again as songs can do.....I am really swirling around lots of stuff......ideas...sadness..optimism...weight...betrayal....surprise...blessing...truth...untruth...and somewhere in the middle! Lines of people to pass you by Posing sympathy with their

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I have sat in front of this computer so many times trying to write a post and I just get frustrated and confused. I am not dead or stagnant, but instead in a dark night, and it is not an event or a feeling or a fleeting moment. It is a journey, and as Thomas Moore states in Dark Night of the Soul;"that is not a challenge to be dealt with quickly or overcome........it cannot be dismissed so easily

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Christmas and New Years Day have passed by and it is on to the real world of essays to grade and lessons to plan. I have always felt a bit of a let down after the holidays and in spite of an alcohol household growing up, I love the holidays! I am leaving the tree up till next weekend. It was fresh cut in Vermont by Bailey and I and very alive. Also, the 12 days of Christmas are not over. January

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If I can, I will post more today or tomorrow. I am heading out to rake leaves, but this song is worth noting. I downloaded it when it came out a while ago. Bailey played last night at the Colonial Theater and it was a blast to be back stage and see each season's artist autograph boards since the theater reopened in 2006. I rented a Van to allow Bailey to use his own (far superior) marimba for the

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Each that we lose takes part of us;A crescent still abides,Which like the moon, some turbid night,Is summoned by the tides. Emily DickinsonThomas Moore says that the special language of a dark night is poetry. That is surely why many special selections of music have always been so important and such inspiration to me at difficult times in my life. He says that the following secret is generally

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Wow! My first post in many months and I have only begun to think about why I haven't written. I am not even ready to really, truly express it. I only know that for 16 months or so a powerful, spiritual experience gripped my life and made it impossible not to see some very amazing, sad, meaningful, dark, light, deep and penetrating things. Now, as that experience has slipped away, I find myself in

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This Sunday at First Church of Christ in Pittsfield Rev. Lumsden preached a sermon from Paul's letter to the Romans. The subject of the sermon is Grace! I enjoyed the sermon and it's message floated me back in time to a sermon I heard at a week long retreat on Lake George that included an English evangelist named Malcolm Smith. He preached every evening and I remember being transfixed by his

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Therapy today really helped me to gain some insight and validation concerning my feelings and recent events in my life! My therapist does understand and said that I keep getting up from the tragedies life has dealt me, and then just as I am up, something happens to knock me down again! She sees that my support system is almost non-existent and hopes that I continue to try to find a circle of

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This is my first blog entry in over six weeks. This fact alone speaks to how busy I have been. Well, it is the end of the school year and I am grateful for some time to rest and hopefully do some work around the yard and house! It has been about 18 months since Vicki died and of course I think about her everyday! This time has left me with some pervasive feelings that I do not understand at all.

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I have tried without success to post a music player in my blog, specifically in my sidebar. Well, finally I found a link and instructions for how to do it and I am psyched! Now, I can post music that is in my own personal play list! Most times in my life, I have songs that I listen to quit a bit until they fade out of my rotation and are replaced by other songs. I had to play with the player code

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After completing my obligation as a potential juror this morning, and a wonderful conversation with RJ at First Church, I got to have a very contemplative, philosophical day at home. I spent some time making MP3's out of some sermons that I heard at a retreat on lake George in 1976 and also watched the Madonna DVD of her Sticky and Sweet tour from Buenos Aires. Most of the songs were off of her

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The title of this short post is a line from a David Byrne song titled "A Soft Seduction" from a solo CD called Feelings. For those who may not know, David Byrne was the lead man in the awesome group Talking Heads! When they were together, I was the first one in the store to grab their new releases. I continued to follow David's solo work, but not as closely. I never saw the Heads in concert, but

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I finally found the time and energy to play with new blog templates and editing features offered by Blogger, so here is my new expression of The Night Sea Journey! Let me know what you think.I have felt this feeling for the last year or so as I have mourned Vicki's death and tried my best to embrace this new life that I live. The feeling is that I only get moments of optimism, moments of joy,

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I am really not sure where this post is going, but I know I have a desire to explore, seek and experience things, and I am not even always sure what those things are. The last two weekends were crazy for me! I had to to grade a mega-amount of paragraphs, essays, tests, and worksheets for my sixth grade language arts classes, so I could input grades before the deadline for the third quarter. I

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Just the music today!

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I have to admit, and I have covered this well with my therapist, that I am very sad and lonely! I am grateful for the nuts and bolts that sustain the necessities of life, but some things, like my job take so much of my energy and leave very little time for me. I mean, you have no idea what it takes to engage a class of 22 sixth graders in this age of technology and entertainment. At their age I

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Today is Vicki's Birthday. We promised her that we would still celebrate her birthday as an extra special remembrance for her. So in spite of the weather we bought a cake and Bailey and I will take a moment to reflect on the special person she was and how we are grateful that she was a part of our life. We received a card in the mail from a teacher friend of Vicki's and inside she included a poem

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Like a punch in the stomach, today was as sad and low as I have felt in a long time! I mean cry real tears by yourself sadness. I had a great therapy session yesterday and we talked a lot about what I can do for myself to make life better, sweeter for me (and that doesn't mean that Vicki is forgotten or that grieving is done.) When we looked at it together, life has been pretty rough for me for

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As I mentioned in my last blog entry, I ordered some hard to find CD's from Amazon. After some great conversation with a friend about music and other creative stuff, I came home to find one of the CD's had arrived via UPS! In Light Syrup by Toad the Wet Sprocket. I just gave a quick listen and found two more songs I love in addition to Good Intentions and Little Heaven. The first is All in All...

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Ahhhh!! Vacation, and while a bit lonely, I finally have some time to dabble in some online searching for rare music and inspiration! I ordered several hard to find Cd's by Toad The Wet Sprocket and a solo album by Tears for Fears alpha member Roland Orzabal. I will post a song or two from this solo album that was released on 9-11-2001! Anyone who knows me knows how I feel about TFF! The album

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Toad the Wet Sprocket continues to amaze me with their introspection, depth of exploration, and feeling as I explore their music!I will give the secrets you requestAnd you will be the one to sacrificeSo lay your olive arms upon my breastAnd sing the poems, free the butterfliesPray your gods who ask you for your bloodFor they are strong and angry jealous onesOr lay upon my altar now your loveI

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I have to post this song by a group that I love. Propelled by the MTV thrust and admittedly written in an effort to make a top 40 song, Tears for Fears succeeded to create a big hit. I just loved this song then and now. It is one of those songs that I just never tire of! This won't be a long post since my mattress and warm blankets are calling. But I want this song to be a part of my blog.

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One of the results of Michael Jackson's death has been the discovery of his music and dancing by millions of kids. In my middle school- kids are really into him. My son Bailey has really enjoyed learning about his music as well. Last night we bought the Blu-Ray DVD of THIS IS IT! The very high quality recording of Michael's rehearsals. HE STILL HAD IT! Great voice, great moves and an amazing

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Oh, I know some people would scoff at the notion of hearing God speak, but I did feel God speaking today at a meeting after church. No matter what anyone thinks it does happen now and then. For me it is just a deep awareness that something important is being heard or felt. This morning I felt it. I think the voice of God is everywhere. I think it exists in between the things that are easy to see.

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I have a full day of things to do today, including tons, and I mean tons of essay grading which takes lots of time (maybe I should teach Math!). Yesterday as I was undecorating the tree carefully, since we have so many antique and precious ornaments and I was playing music that I have burned to a small external hard drive! The song I am posting came up and I was deeply touched by it. The song is

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I love it when I discover music in unlikely places! Not too long ago Bailey and I went to the movies and saw a very fun movie called Hotel for Dogs, and it had a great soundtrack. I went into my ZUNE community and listened to the entire album and a few songs really appealed to me. I can't begin to tell you how many musical influences I have. I don't think there are too many people that I have

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Christmas and all of it's joy and sorrow is coming to an end as I write these words. Yes, there was joy and happiness but at one point this morning I remember thinking that I felt like I was in a place that had a loud echo. A place like a large room that is empty enough to hear your own voice bounce off hard walls. The tree is beautiful and Bailey and I exchanged gifts and smiled but together we

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I was in a music and video store and picked up U2's Rattle and Hum on DVD and my life has not been the same. What a great live performance and in surround on a big screen and kick-ass sound! I can't stop watching and I paid only $9.99 for it! I am a sensitive and intuitive person and I know soul, meaning and depth when I see and hear it. AMAZING! Vicki left me her church....her minister...and

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This is going to be a long blog!!! In the middle of the hustle and bustle of a typical week teaching middle school kids and trying to think about and prepare for Christmas I had many thoughts about Vicki and what I might write about in this blog today! One year ago tonight at about 6:30, or one year ago tomorrow December 6th, which is the actual date, Vicki died! I knew the end was coming, as I

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I am taking a break from holiday cleaning to write a quick post. I have my turkey and all the fixings ready to cook tomorrow and at the moment I feel just fine. Yesterday was real tough, but I had a therapy session where I poured my heart out about many things and I got lots of validation and caring. I cannot begin to explain the value of therapy that connects and works for you. I cried lots of

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The November/December issue of BERKSHIRE LIVING has another great review and article about the Beatles and their newly remastered music. Seth Rogovoy is right on again, not only about the quality of these new recordings, but also in his analysis of their music in his article titled, EVEN FABBER. He begins with...I mean, I knew they were great—heck, beyond great. They were essential, innovative,

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I would really like to be writing on this blog more, but while I think it is going well, school is extremely demanding. I have to admit that my mind continues to be flooded with memories of a year ago. Most of these memories are about the hospital and are difficult and sad! In fact, Bailey and I went to his orthopaedic surgeon yesterday to check his arm out and schedule his next surgery to remove

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Some things are just too hard to ignore as we live our lives! I spent a lot of time yesterday in therapy discussing my feelings and how crazy my life is. Loneliness,and how my new job, on top of this new life, has really robbed me of so many things that I enjoy doing (including being the parent I'd like to be). My therapist talked about our culture and how we are not a very nurturing one! She

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Yesterday I attended a graveside burial service for for my Grandmother! Helen E. Taylor. She was my last remaining grandparent and was my grandmother from my mother's side of the family. She died in a nursing home at the age of 92. I wasn't particularly close to her but I have many fond memories from my youth of her telling cool stories. To me she seemed to love to laugh! She also was very

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At this time last year, in fact one year to the day yesterday,Vicki and I went to see Bailey's school band Halloween concert. What sticks in my mind is that Vicki was really starting to feel poorly. She had gotten very weak, much like she was before she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. In fact, I had to drive her right to the door and drop her off and then go and park the car. We live only 5

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I received the newest Hospice mailing to day and sat and ate a cheeseburger with Bailey while I read it. These letters always seem to hit the right spot and this one did no less. It also had a poem from Gates Book of Prayer, Reform Judaism Prayerbook! Here it is..In the rising of the sunand its going down,We remember them;In the blowing of the windand in the chill of winter,We remember them;In

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"Truth can only be expressed aesthetically--in story, picture, film, dance and music." This is a quote from "Dark Nights of the Soul" by Thomas Moore. It is also what this blog is ultimately about (see my side bar). Tonight, I caught the film, Field of Dreams on AMC and the tears just flowed at a movie I have seen many times, in fact even own. It is a story where a corn field turned baseball

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I know that this is a long blog entry and perhaps I do not yet possess the words to express well what I feel on this subject, but if you are a reader hang in there with me and really listen.Today's sermon at First Church on Park Square in Pittsfield MA was extraordinary at many levels. Reverend Lumsden's words echoed for me personally since I have suffered a severe loss and continue to struggle

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Just a quick post to say thank you to those who care and understand and to RJ for reaching out, I dedicate this song. He is living proof that the message contained it this song is alive and well! I know I am better off as a result of the caring!

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Well church today was an amazing combination of beautiful music, wise words, healing, and emotional spirit. I know I was feeling emotional when I walked into the building! I think it is the change of seasons combined with thoughts of apple picking which Vicki loved to do! Bailey and I were not sure whether we could go this time or not. Last year at this very time, Vicki walked the fields with us,

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The Beatles remastered Cd's are out today and I went and bought them! I have their albums but never purchased the Cd's because I thought they did not sound very good! I did have the two greatest hit compilations and the Number 1's Cd to quench my thirst. So far, I have to say they sound great and I am psyched that I bought them. The Cd's have new liner notes and rare photos as well. They are also

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This was one heck of a huge week! I feel good about what I was able to accomplish but it was certainly not easy! I have great classes with great kids and I will take the responsibility of their education very seriously. I want to have fun, be creative and still stretch the potential of every student I teach. I am wiped out and yes I thought about bailing many times, but I hung in there sought

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I watched the funeral service held in Boston for Senator Edward Kennedy and I am exhausted. I cried and I cried, especially when Senator Kennedy's son Ted Jr. spoke. His genuine and incredibly enlightened eulogy moved me so very much and epitomized the greatness of the Senator! I know through therapy that an effect of loss is of course sensitivity to loss. The death of Senator Kennedy marks a

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The title of this blog comes from a song by HEART.....If you love me like music I'll be your song......sometimes words are not necessary where there is soul.....Please listen!I do have to explain this next song.....it has happened before where I buy a CD and quickly listen to the songs and of course the hits grab me and I find a few more and they become my play list for that CD. Then sometime

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I had a nice lunch today with a dear friend. His name is James. I cannot say enough good things about him! Genuine, kind, loving, caring and talented are just a few adjectives to describe him! Oh yes, he happens to also be the minister of my church! I am grateful that he had the time to hear my thoughts and it was nice to be able to listen as well. I am posting a few songs that resulted from our

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I have been writing of late about how hard things are and believe me I am not exaggerating. If anything, knowing me, I am understating things. I feel such powerful emotions and I really feel sick inside. I really feel that the stress of a new position at school is a big part. But, I also think I feel awful that Vicki cannot teach this fall. Right now she would be very excited and preparing to

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Well, I have been reluctant to post this next song because it meant so much to me before and after Vicki died! The album came out around 2001 and I discovered it by accident thinking it contained a different song that I was looking for by another group. The purchase seemed like a mistake! I listened to the CD and fell in love with this song because of the emotion and depth, as well as the way

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No, I am not talking about just one day but this whole period of my life. One by one, people let me down and maybe 2 people in this world have spoken to me with some kind of understanding of not only what to say but how to be present! August, in particular has been the most challenging month for me as I face the most difficult career/life challenge on the heels of way too many challenges! But

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Berkshire Living has proven to be a wonderful magazine full of articles about this culture, complete listings of the goings on and even music insights by the well known local critic and writer Seth Rogovoy. In the August Issue, http://www.berkshireliving.com/, Rogovoy writes an article entitled FREUDIAN HIP about Roy Orbison. A new box set titled Roy Orbison The Soul of Rock 'n' Roll is the

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Finally! Bailey had his cast removed on Tuesday and everything is going well! The Surgeon is pleased with the progress of the bones in his arm! He isn't completely healed and we have an appointment to return in one month. He will still have to have another procedure to remove the hardware in his arm. Bailey's least favorite thing about cast removal is the spinning saw with a vacuum attached for

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I have been saying many things on this blog and sometimes I have let music speak for me! How about Carole King and her classic album, TAPESTRY! What a great song writer...I have chosen to post Home Again for my own reasons and it is a wonderful live version from 2008. For some reason 1 channel of the stereo cuts out but still amazing how well she performs this song. After the song I have copied a

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Well, I know I sound like a broken record, but hopefully all of you out there listening and reading are at least enjoying the music. This is another song that just always moved me. Songs like this sometimes just sent a kind of wave through my soul as as kid! Today listening to it I could not contain my tears! In 1963 (there is that year again) this song climbed the charts to Number 2 and only

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Bailey and I went to visit a friend on Saturday and we had lots of fun playing Monster Golf, swimming and riding the Motion Odyssey Movie at Jordan's Furniture! Monster golf is a miniature golf game played indoors with black light illuminating the entire course! We had a nice dinner out and headed home. Bailey slept for some of the ride home and I listened to Satellite radio. I got into a groove

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Since Vicki's death in December, Hospice has been in touch with me periodically. I haven't taken advantage of their services directly since I have a wonderful therapist to talk to! In addition, I have a great Church to attend and the minister has really been kind to me, just as he was to Vicki before during and after her illness. Still, every so often, I receive packets of information from

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I have always enjoyed Madonna's music from the early dance club hits through her more meaningful and boundary stretching stuff, right up to her most recent Cd HARD CANDY! The next two songs I am posting don't need lots of my words since their meaning is so deep and obvious. The first song is FROZEN from her Ray of Light Cd. These songs were written by the spiritual inspiration obtained by her

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A few years ago I made a couple of DVDs of Christmas and Bailey's school musical performances and Vicki loved them. Then when Bailey was 5 we made a video for Vicki for Mother's Day. Bailey wanted the video to contain all the cool things he did outside like riding his, bike, scooter, big wheel and electric car. He also wanted to show her a few sports like the swings, basketball, and soccer. We

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Today I watched another movie that I have seen before but watched again, THE DOORS and of course it brings up lots of thoughts about creativity, beauty, genius, and excess. Jim Morrison was intelligent but broken. The DOORS were amazing in concert when Jim was not drunk or tripping but when he was out of it they were a disaster. Living within The Doors became like living in an alcoholic household

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So, I start watching a movie that I have never seen before, SWEET NOVEMBER starring Keanu Reeves and Charlize Theron. It starts kinda funny, goofy and somewhat meaningful and then BOOM turns out she is dying. Hmmmm.....well this post will never convey the emotion I felt but I certainly understand, like the movie shows, that love changes us and it doesn't always work out the way you wish!

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On Friday July 10, Bailey and I decided to take a day trip to Salem, Massachusetts to visit the Witch Museum and all the other historical sites in this old seaside city. First of all, it was an absolutely beautiful day so walking around was very pleasant. The only hard part of the day was parking, but after securing a spot we were on our way. We started with Salem Witch Village and the Bailey

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If you are going to discuss the greatest rock singers of all time there is no way you can leave Robert Plant out of the discussion. He could do so many things with his voice and of course he had such a presence live! I love this song from his solo Cd, Now and Zen! He had previously distanced himself from his Led Zeppelin past but on this Cd he samples riffs and even had Jimmy Page play on the cut

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The following post is inspired by this post at the blog... when love comes to town! Here is the link to the post http://rj-whenlovecomestotown.blogspot.com/2009/07/humility-imagination-and-laughter-as.htmlPoetry in the larger sense of the word--poems, stories, myths, paintings, dances, dreams--is the most exhilarating and transporting vehicle for travel there is. More effective than space

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As I have previously mentioned I am in the process of re-ripping all of my music onto a portable hard drive. It is a lot of work but a joyous kind of work as I go back through all of my Cd's. It is kind of like a journey through time. It also why I am doing more blog entries than usual. Since I am sitting here opening CD after CD I may as well write! I am only at about 225 Cd's ripped so far.Many

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Today was Bailey's checkup and x-ray to see if the hardware in his forearm was indeed doing what it was intended to do and YES, all is well! The Doctor said he couldn't be happier with the results. He even mentioned that they took Bailey's x-rays to a conference where orthopedic surgeons discuss cases and strategy! So Bailey has a nice green cast for two weeks and he is already outside getting it

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I am bouncing back and forth between trying to remained focused on the spiritual aspects of this life I am living and the pain and sorrow that can overwhelm at times. Music and art keep me introspective and mostly positive. I know this is a deep and spiritual time for me and I feel myself becoming rather reclusive and contemplative. The problem with that is that some people do not understand and

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Aren't we all broken inside in some way? I just wanted to post a few songs by Daughtry that I have been listening to in my own informal rotation! I face every day and it isn't easy since I am cursed with the burden of self awareness. That said, I do struggle with those that aren't burdened with this same curse!This is more of a music post than anything grand and earth shattering...but listen,

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Yesterday I received a phone call from a woman who offered to help me understand the complexities of the bible! I was relieved that I hadn't actually answered the phone and that the voice I was hearing was a message on my voice mail! At the very end she included that if I was indeed interested in this help that I should answer the door when a Jehovah's Witness called on me. My Goal is not to be

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I have read about and believe in the upside down, inside out or whatever words you want to use to describe the paradoxical nature of the Kingdom of God in this contemporary world! Truly living becomes something you do that goes against the grain for sure. But today I am pondering my secular world and it is surely upside down and very different than before Vicki died. For example, my eating habits

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Well, another music post as I continue to re-rip all of my music onto a portable hard drive. I had completed this task last summer but an accidental drop 2 feet to the floor lost all the information. Oh well, there are worse things in life! These songs jump forward from the edge of my last post to main stream pop, hip hop and three female artists! Oh yes and Bailey finally got a hair cut and I am

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The art on this blog was created by ME! The black and white is a poster paint project using shades of gray for an art project in college circa 1981. I took a digital photo of it in a glass frame so you can see some blue reflections that are not part of the painting! The second is an oil painting that I did in 1979.I have been told I have a lot of diversity in my musical taste and I suppose there

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As a teacher in a public school system I often wonder about our society, what it values and it's impact on our children. It seems to me that too many kids today are not allowed to be children. Too many are not getting their basic life needs met. They are driven away from their basic qualities of spontaneous play and youthful vitality towards the goals of our society's desires driven largely by

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I'll just let this video speak to you in whatever way you feel moved! Be sure to view the credits at the end.

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Just like life today's church service at The First Church of Christ on Park Square was both enlightening and surprising. I certainly experienced what was honestly, and I mean truly honestly, the most touching moment I have ever experienced in a Sunday church service. Rev. James (R.J.) ending his sermon titled, "Taking Ourselves More Lightly..." with a touching and heartfelt acoustic version of

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Back in 2005 Vicki was named Wal Mart Teacher of the Year and after rereading Vicki's memorial service notes on Rev. Lumsden's Blog, I thought again about Vicki and her desire to do good without fanfare and attention to herself. In fact, Rev. Lumsden's blog has several recent posts on humility and Vicki was certainly a humble servant of GOD! RJ, (Rev. James) starts his notes for this Sunday's

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I have had a few people ask about Vicki's memorial service and so I am going to provide a link in this post to Rev. James Lumsden's notes on his blog. I can only tell you that I couldn't have heard a more acurate, heartfelt and reality filled testimony to Vicki and her life! I am including the link to the post rather than coping and pasting the entire work in my blog! http://

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A late afternoon I won't forget took place today. Sitting with a friend talking, ironically about music and life and out of the corner of my eye I see a BREAKING NEWS story about Michael Jackson suffering a cardiac arrest and soon after the announcement that he in fact was dead. We were both in shock and for moments silent. The fun conversation lost it's momentum and turned to sadness for a while

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Vicki and I were married 23 years ago today, so Bailey and I went out to dinner. One year ago the three of us went out together and enjoyed a fun dinner to celebrate! (Oh yes, Bailey gets his surgery tomorrow morning at 7:30 a.m.) We picked the band that played at our wedding reception because they could play Talking Heads songs and while Vicki never cared much for them, they were, and are one my

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I watched this movie last night, P.S. I Love You and wow what tears. Streaming, gut wrenching tears brought on by a movie that connected as deep as can be! I copied the overview from an online review.......Holly Kennedy is beautiful, smart, and married to the love of her life--a passionate, funny, and impetuous Irishman named Gerry. So when Gerry's life is taken by an illness, it takes the life

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There is so much I could write about but I am so tired I need to keep it brief! Bailey ( my 13 year old son) went to the orthopedic surgeon for an x-ray today and unfortunately the bones have moved more and he will need surgery! He broke his right forearm 10 days ago and after surgery for the wound caused by the compound fracture, and realignment of the broken bones, we had to wait and see if the

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If you read this blog you know what I have been feeling, but sometimes just a song says it all...the melody, the passion, the beat, the lyrics, or just a deep soulful feeling! Tears has always been that way for me. I went on You Tube just drifting around rediscovered a Tears song, FAMOUS LAST WORDS and man what a nice feeling! I've heard the song before ( I own every one of their songs) but

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I am not being selfish or strange and no I am not looking for a girlfriend. I am at the end of my rope to say the least! I am dealing with the loss of Vicki and all that she meant to this family. I am dealing with Bailey and his badly broken arm and possible surgeries and that only magnifies the void! One of my last posts was CRAZY LIFE and yes life can be crazy. The day I wrote that post I

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HONORING SYMPTOMS AS A VOICE OF THE SOUL!-Thomas MooreRev. James Lumsden has been writing about The Wisdom of our Wounds on his blog and you ought to read it...http://rj-whenlovecomestotown.blogspot.com/2009/06/widsom-of-our-wounds-another-try.htmlSometimes the wisdom can be a simple as my son Bailey telling me, "Dad I should listen to you more!" after he breaks his arm and needs surgery to

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Today was one of the best days I have had in a while. I solved some serious issues at school and had 2 very important interactions that provided me with insight, clarity, laughs and meaning!I discovered another Toad the Wet Sprocket song that I love, CRAZY LIFE. The cool thing is that my son, Bailey, was into the song too and requested that I play it over again in the car last night! I actually

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First of all I loved the movie, OH GOD! and for me it always possessed some pretty darn good ideas. I've included the John Denver interview of George Burns (as God) clip. But, I also love the part where an interdenominational group of church leaders present God with questions to answer to prove John Denver has spoken to The REAL GOD! I believe this clip really makes sense in some very profound

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Pictures and video provide so many precious memories and you know that when you take them you are preserving a moment for the future. Of course, I never dreamed that future would come so soon when Vicki died in December! I watch some video and have begun to look at some pictures, and of course, I have cried many tears. But again, I want to say these tears are expressions of pain indeed, but that

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I love it when I am searching through my music and find a song that I really never listened to before! You know you buy a CD and listen to the hits and because of time issues you never really get to listen to the whole CD or maybe you just missed a song. I ripped all of my Cd's onto a portable hard drive at lossless quality and I love how quickly I can access any Cd or any song in seconds. I

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I thank the lord there's people out there like you!

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This entry is inspired by a sermon that I just read on my minister's blog. You should read the sermon...this is the link....http://rj-whenlovecomestotown.blogspot.com/2009/05/i-dont-sin-and-salvation-any-more-do.html.....then you should also read my recent post titled, The Tale of the Wedding at Cana. That post was directly inspired by the chapter entitled..Water to Wine...The Epicurean Jesus.

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In my first post concerning Vicki and the ceremony her school held to dedicate the Morningside School lobby in her name I had hoped to include the short speech that her building's principal had given that day. A short time ago he e-mailed it to me and I want to include it here....Good afternoon everyone. Some seven months ago, classes gathered in this lobby to take their annual class pictures to

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I am reading a new book by Thomas Moore, Writing in the Sand..Jesus and the Soul of the Gospels. So far, it is amazing! He introduces the wedding at Cana, which is usually referred to as the first of Jesus' miracles, as the "resonant" event in the gospels and the key to the message Jesus was trying to convey to humankind! Kingdom (of heaven) living requires a shift in vision and this story of

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I threw this video together late last after finishing my last entry. I really like the way it came out even though I did it very quickly. I also love the audio quality of my own video uploads from my pc.It is so often true that children learn to keep the life they lead and pain they feel in an alcoholic home secret. Just listening to music was never enough for me. I used to sing each song like I

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So, here I sit alone...Bailey is doing a sleepover in the neighborhood with a few friends and I am in the middle of two weeks of the most intense sadness I have felt since Vicki died. In part, I think it is because life has gone on, routines have formed and loneliness and sadness is all I feel. It is like I am feeling the pain for the first time! Denial is gone and all that is left is this

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It has really been a rough week. My energy has been low and motivation was out the window. I know there will be times like this and I know God's grace sustains me and my son. Church was awesome today and gave me a spark. When the service ended and I got into my car and Good Vibrations by The Beach Boys was on the radio....pretty cool! Anyhow, I have to take some time to talk about my 13 year old

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I have found myself not writing to this blog this week in part because I was feeling like I SHOULD write upbeat or positive. The problem is that I haven't felt positive and upbeat. I have been in a funk thinking about Vicki and the unfairness of what has happened to her and about my life and how empty it feels. I feel that I need to be honest and DARK if need be! I know I feel alone and sad. Life

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A new friend and his wife are dealing with the loss of a loved one...her mother. While I know their faith will sustain them through this difficult time, I know all too well how much the love and care of a community can comfort in times of loss. Death and the feelings of loss suck! My thoughts are with them. I once asked a very wise person what she did at times like this and she said, "I simply

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