Saturday, April 18, 2009

A Lonely Day!

Well, I spent most of the day cleaning (yuck) things that haven't been cleaned in along time!! Sure was lonely but I had music playing throughout the house to keep me company! I realized that I am surviving much the way I did when I was a child. The spirit of music kept me alive during the very turbulent years of abuse that existed in my home! It provided escape and fantasy but also provided lots of meaning and ways to safely allow me to feel. So, that is what I was doing today. Lots of thoughts and feelings about Vicki, our past. One song really stuck out for me. Probably because it is such a beautiful song by REM and has a melancholy and uplifting feel (a bit of paradox).......

The second song reminds me of this past summer when Vicki was feeling pretty good and we could almost forget the difficulty we were facing. I called Vicki over to the computer and played this song and as it went along we just looked at each other with tears in our eyes. No Words...just feeling...
I had actually purchased this Eagles CD around Christmas time of 2007 but for some reason never even opened it till early summer 2008. It really is an excellent double CD. The Eagles remind me of my first car in the early to mid 70's and my 8-track tape player and just cruising with no worries!

1 comment:

  1. Sometimes only music can heal the worst of times. Great choices. I wish you luck for the future.