P.S. I Love You

I watched this movie last night, P.S. I Love You and wow what tears. Streaming, gut wrenching tears brought on by a movie that connected as deep as can be! I copied the overview from an online review.......

Holly Kennedy is beautiful, smart, and married to the love of her life--a passionate, funny, and impetuous Irishman named Gerry. So when Gerry's life is taken by an illness, it takes the life out of Holly. The only one who can help her is the person who is no longer there. Nobody knows Holly better than Gerry. So it's a good thing he planned ahead. Before he died, Gerry wrote Holly a series of letters that will guide her, not only through her grief but in rediscovering herself. The first message arrives on Holly's 30th birthday in the form of a cake and, to her utter shock, a tape recording from Gerry, who proceeds to order her to get out and "celebrate herself." In the weeks and months that follow, more letters from Gerry are delivered in surprising ways, each sending her on a new adventure and each signing off in the same way: P.S. I Love You. Holly's mother and her best friends Sharon and Denise begin to worry that Gerry's letters are keeping Holly tied to the past, but, in fact, each letter is pushing her farther into a new future. With Gerry's words as her guide, Holly embarks on a touching, exciting, and often hilarious journey of rediscovery in a story about marriage, friendship, and how a love so strong can turn the finality of death into a new beginning for life. (Warner Bros.)

While reviews were mixed (who cares) this movie spoke to me on many levels. At the end of the movie after receiving 10 letters over a period of one year from Gerry after his death, Holly is finally OK and she says that Gerry brought her back from the dead. In the last scene it has been one year since Gerry's death and Holly says, "This is my one and only life and it is a great and terrible and short and endless thing and none of us comes out of it alive!" I cannot embed the closing scene but you can see it if you click the link here....please view this link and enjoy the Irish landscape before going on...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LuDzjt3x944

Here is the song by Flogging Molly...



After seeing part of this movie on HBO or Showtime I knew I had to see and own it so I bought it! I called Vicki's Mom to tell her about it and while I clearly was bothering her she said she hadn't seen it, but that Vicki had told her about it and recommended that she see it! WOW! Vicki watched this movie while she was sick..I am sure cried just like I did and she never shared it with me. I am not mad or upset...it was just Vicki being Vicki and it was just to difficult for her to open that door! But as I cried I could feel her tears knowing she had seen this too. So, in the long run we did share it.

I am not even close to place where Holly is at the end of this film, when she can say, "It's OK , It's alright!". First of all, it has been only 6 months and I'm just not OK or alright. There are things I just cannot do and life is moving at a pace that I cannot keep up with. I have a pulled muscle in my neck from tension that is killing me! (I saw a doctor) In one tearful moment between Holly and her Mom, she is crying about not being able to breathe and that she is all alone. In fact, she says, ultimately we are all alone and her mother replies that if that is true then we are all in it together!

Lastly, there is this line in a letter from Gerry to Holly, "You were my life, but I am a chapter in yours! I will always love you Holly!"



If I have let people down, or not followed through in ways you think I should, I am sorry! I am doing my best and I need friends who can just sit with me. You don't have to solve a single problem for me. I feel alone and in a world that is only becoming vaguely OK! Some people are just too busy and I won't hold a grudge. In the same situation, I would probably be just as guilty!